Trying and flailing

Vast majority of the time I feel lucky. I feel blessed. I am genuinely grateful for the many great aspects of my life and times. When I was a kid and growing up I never felt fortunate. I felt anxious, insecure, afraid, and dreadfully cursed by any and all higher powers imaginable. I never wanted…

Jubilant heartbreak

I have been in a gut-wrenching funk the last couple of days. Life has continued, I have carried on, yet I feel as if my heart is being shredded and all my insides are melting steadily, like a taper candle steadily burning and the wax pooling at the bottom. The backstory: my oldest child died…