As noted in my last post I have a few job interviews this week. Being a planner, I opened up my closets today so I have a plan on what to wear and found … those stuffed-with-clothes closets contain exactly one summer temperature appropriate professional skirt and blouse. After 10+ years of working in an extraordinarily casual industry and office, I have tons of jeans, khakis, shorts, casual dresses, jean skirts, and t-shirts. On the winter side I have several wool skirts and long-sleeved blouses and twinsets, or at least enough for a week of outfits as long as dry cleaning is relatively quick. Another curious fact – I do not have a single pair of business appropriate dress slacks. When I did work in corporate environments, I always wore a dress or skirt and blouse. Slacks were not something I sought out, because I could never find anything I felt was flattering.
What makes this feel so much worse is that I am between sizes and have lost/am losing weight. Oh so slowly, but the scale is mostly moving in the right direction.
So I have spent much of my day shopping. This is not sport shopping, either. This is hardcore, on a mission shopping. I hate it. Seriously. I hate it. So rather than go to the mall and be Ms. Cranky with unsuspecting clerks who absolutely insist upon asking to assist me, I decided to start online and bite the bullet with overnight shipping.
I purchase 6 different dresses from Nordstrom, but 4 of those in normal and smaller sizes. I have high hopes for keeping 2 of my Nordstrom purchases, because they are simple sheath styles that should be both business-like and flattering. I also called and pleaded my case with customer service, and she could not have been nicer about cutting down that big giant overnight shipping fee. Spend enough money in one purchase and they do these things for you, so it’s obviously not something I recommend. But everything was on sale, but the total made me flinch. I have resolved to keep only 2, assuming there are 2 in the lot that actually fit right, and return the rest. Fingers and toes crossed something works.
On the bright side, even if I get/accept none of these jobs I will have something nice to wear at weddings and funerals (4 of 6 are black, then a gorgeous red and a fabulous royal blue). I have plenty of pumps or sandals to wear, lots of nice handbags. Hopefully I can accessorize simply with jewelry and not look too plain without one of those scarf things that are so popular. For whatever reason I am scarf-challenged; my daughter, K can drape those puppies across their shoulders and around their necks and look like they stepped out of a display. For me it looks sloppy or like I’m trying to spontaneously strangle myself.
Hair should be okay as I just had it trimmed and low-lighted last week to cover the mass quantity of gray hair. Tomorrow I’ll go see my former waxing lady for a brow shaping and lip wax. She’s clear across town, but I’m light on deadline-driven work and therefore have room in the schedule to indulge myself.
Really, these are things I should have considered months ago and been building into my plans. But I’m focused on refreshing myself to look competent and professional now, so I will make it happen. It is as if I suddenly woke up and realize I have eduction and experience that qualify me for something more than a small and quirky firm. I am torn between exhilarated and excited about being referred by my former CPA firm employers or alarmed and afraid about being found lacking. It is certainly a weird place to be after 10 years with the same firm and doing a lot of the same thing and wrestling with almost the same problems, year after year.