Yesterday was my second of 20 personal training appointments and J introduced me to several new TRX exercises to add to my rotation, of which I cannot recall all the details. Hopefully he will have time today/this weekend to provide me my cheat sheets, at which time I will update the list below. I still have and am working at our floor basics (see here for that list), but the TRX does give me a different level of challenge. I had completed an early morning Bikram yoga class prior to our meeting and was warmed up and ready to dive in to our workout. (For the record, I went home and showered and changed into fresh workout clothes before arriving at the gym; no way would I ever show up in sweaty, stinky yoga clothes for a one-on-one training appointment in that condition.) The TRX we did yesterday that stick in my mind (updated Sunday evening with actual names from trainer J):
- TRX Squats – a couple of variations
- TRX Row – refreshed on that and added a variation
- TRX Y – upper body that is so much harder than it seems
- TRX Hammie Lunge – a variation on the deadlifts I’m battling
- TRX Pushup – refreshed with corrections and adjustments
- TRX Sway Plank – another plank! So fun
- TRX Facepull with External Rotation – this one was interesting and will require some additional practice
- TRX Resist Rotation Press – deceptively simple
And with that, here are my goals and progress report for the week.
- Weight – Drop 20 lbs. ON TRACK
Second week finds me down 1 lb. and clothes fitting a little differently – pants a little looser, a couple of tops a little tighter in the arms (which is hopefully temporary). As I reported last week, it’s ALL about the clothes, yet there is a definite feeling of satisfaction seeing that scale going down. Hopefully it will be enough to buoy and keep me going during the weeks of pounds gained.
- Strength training – 3 times per week on my own. ON TRACK
In the 7 days between training sessions, I practiced some or all of the assigned floor exercises every single day. I still have issues with the sumo deadlift, but I have made friends with squats and do them randomly throughout the day to pass the time or bleed off stress. I am also consciously pursuing a better attitude toward this process, and from that my technique just seems to be improving. I am also forcing myself to go to the gym for short periods to overcome my shyness/anxiety about being there. The short visits – sometimes I am only there 20 minutes – is paying off with less discomfort and less hyper-awareness of everyone around me. With the TRX we did yesterday, I have to go there to practice. So far, so good; I got there this morning and have plans for more visits throughout the upcoming week.
- Stretching/Flexibility – 3 to 4 yoga practices per week. ON TRACK
I was at yoga practice last Friday (see my report about that here), Saturday morning, Monday morning, Tuesday evening, and Thrusday before meeting with J, for a total of 5 practices this reporting week. The 5:30 a.m. classes are a great way to start the day, assuming I can pry my eyes open with that 4:30 a.m. alarm on the days I plan for it.
- Cardio/HIIT – 3 days per week. KINDA ON TRACK
I am doing well with the daily walking/rowing, but nothing stellar and worthy of effusive description. The need to step up and be more vigorous occurs to me, yet I am not expending much energy in that regard. Right now I’m far more focused on getting my mind under control and myself to the gym and to yoga regularly.
- Post updates each week. ON TRACK
Here we are – update from session 2 of 20. Perhaps my enthusiasm will wane, but J has thus far been a near-perfect companion and teacher for my fitness journey.
While I am lavish in my praise for trainer J, his patience, his training technique, and how well that all works for me, the energy yesterday was a little different than it has been. I rationally, logically know this is coming entirely from me and my own head. My anxiety about going to the gym flared badly yesterday and I gave in and skipped going for cardio last night. It’s ridiculous for me to be this awkward about just going someplace for a workout, but it is what it is.
I had a scheduled appointment this morning with my therapist and we talked about this and other things. Things are going pretty well with adjustments in diet and learning/doing new exercise practices, and I recognize my own brand of self-sabotage. Despite what the voices say, I am not powerless to stop sabotaging my efforts; I have many skills and tools available to battle back. He really helped me recognize and acknowledge the positives in my recent behaviors – I’m going to the gym, I’m exercising regularly, I’m learning new skills and adopting new habits – and reinforced the tools I can utilize to restrain myself from parroting the negative voices inside my head. If I have to think of and say out loud positive things to quiet them, I will just have to do it.
Why is it so hard to accept that I deserve the success I am achieving? I am working hard and I am making incremental progress. It aggravates me to no end that I cannot just enjoy that and not continue to think about where I am/might be falling short.
Talking about affirmations reminded me of yesterday’s training. I had told J the story of my overly challenging yin yoga class and about my difficulties with breathing during yoga and exercise in general, and he adapted that as an additional factor of the planks. He calls it “balloon belly” or the act of inhaling (expands tummy) and exhaling (deflates tummy) and how if anyone walked by and heard him quing me with that term would think him such a jerk … which of course made me laugh and completely lose my plank concentration.
Okay. My goal for today – not to worry about it anymore and to just do what I have on my lists for exercise, which includes going to the gym. I can do it.
Happy weekending everyone!