I hurt my foot while we were in Seattle and it’s been sore and tender at least part of each day since then. It’s like a muscle sprain or spasm in the arch of my right foot, and while training with J this morning I did something that caused the pain and strain to flare hard. Fortunately we were on the tail end of step-ups when it happened, but I was fine to continue to hinges and sumo deadlifts. I was definitely limping since it happened, and it’s painful even sitting with the foot delevated. Pain tends to prey upon my stress level, and after what just happened I have given in and scheduled a doctor appointment tomorrow morning. Maybe there’s something I can do to make it heal faster.
Because I have this nagging pain in my foot, my tension and stress triggers are higher than normal. I am at my part-time job today trying to clean up some messes and catch up on things, one of which is a former copy machine lease with ongoing drama. Into which walks the latests and greatest sales rep, who proceeds to profess to understand my frustration with his firm yet marginalize it at the same time. I uncharacertistically completely lost my cool, raised my voice, and limpingly threw him out of my office.
The fun never seems to end during my limited time here.
This has been a very stressful week. While I enjoyed my time away and returned refreshed and relaxed, that quickly evaporated under the sheer volume of work and problems here in this one firm. It reinforces that cutting back and expanding my freelance work into a full-time business was the right solution to an ongoing problem, yet until I completely cut ties here I am going to be faced with the stress and the issues. My reasons for maintaining this relationship are valid – health insurance! – but the contrast between the rest of my clients and workload and this one job is stark. I simply must stay through the end of the year, when my plan to change to another insurance carrier comes to fruition, after which I can terminate my employment and go COBRA until I find another healthcare solution. Since I have a chronic health condition, I must stick it out until I am established with the new carrier on December 1. It’s only a few months; I can do it.
But I do not want to do it. I want to be irresponsible and cut ties completely NOW. Sometimes it truly sucks to be a rsponsible adult.