When all is all right in my world

Friend J sent me a text this morning with his version of an apology. He said "you know what I meant about the doddering old lady and weight machines comment. You're too f**king young for that shit." I knew what he meant when he said it, but I suspect his latest lady friend tore his head…

Training #43 – In the summertime

Memorial day, and training with J. It's Monday, I had no plans ... other than training. A chill morning, feeling a bit disconnected with the long weekend. But even disconnected in this context is a pretty good and great thing; relaxing and recharging the batteries was in order. Today was a combination of review of…

Mishmash of this and that

Been a pretty low-key weekend around these parts the last few days. Nothing extraordinary or exciting going on in my little world, so this post is just a compilation of the random in my life this holiday weekend. Exercise nightmares. Friday night I had disturbing dreams about a few of the exercises on my Lists,…

Training #42 – Amazing Grace

Thursday morning and training with J. It was a super chill session, for which I am actually quite grateful. I mean, I could always speak up and say "it's been a long, hard week; let's take it easy," but I never do that. On the other hand, I probably don't really have to speak up…

If only

There are certain words and terms I want to exorcise from my vocabulary and use. Words like "fail" or "should" and terms like "if only." Context is absolutely critical here, though, because it remains glaringly obvious to me that I cannot completely extricate myself from using these words and terms in all situations and in…

Growing on

This weekend, a backslide with the negative girl inside my head felt more like going over Niagra Falls in a barrel. A few recurring themes echoed through the weekend and the last few weeks, shadows of old and fresh pain of betrayal and rejection. Made for a very tough weekend that has/had absolutely nothing to do with training or exercise directly,…

Training #41 – Meow mix song

Monday morning and training with J. And it was a very good session, which I say pretty much every Monday and Thursday. Much of the time I leave the gym feeling super pumped and excited and feeling like wonder woman's much more common, very distant cousin. Today, not so much. Still good, still happy, still…

Trying, failing, oh well-ing

I meant to take the entire weekend off from exercise. Completely. No gym. No yoga. No rowing or arc training here at home. No mini band walking up and down the halls. Nothing. Couch potato city was calling and I was going to embrace it. But ... I faltered. By mid morning Saturday and folding…

TGIF

The way I am, work, live ... a lot of life happens inside my head. The stuff that drives and motivates me is there, and what holds me back or makes me anxious. My brain is a powerful force of good and other stuff. This month I have been having odd feelings about and issues with my…