Training #40 – The cup of life

Thursday, so training with J. But not yet. I am starting this post before our session, because I had to push it back from 7 to 8:30 to accommodate an early morning conference call I feared (justifiably so) would run late. Training appointments are judiciously guarded on the calendar, and I rarely allow anything to…

Happy thinking

I was cleaning up the kitchen after dinner tonight and broke another glass - I think we are down to 3 in this particular style. There may have been a resigned, slightly frustrated sigh, but there was no swearing and thankfully no blood from this latest kitchen calamity. I am grateful for the tiny miracles.…

Money, credit cards, paying the stupid tax

I had 2 instances last week of paying the stupid tax. One was kinda/sorta my fault, the other is completely on me. The first, more benign of the 2 was actually much more expensive. A year or so ago I took a course at an online university, paying my tuition with a credit card. However, the…

Sweaty, gross, and work-work

I got home from the gym this morning with just enough time for a last-minute conference call ... which my client wanted to do via skype. Great. Sweat-soaked hair and practice top, face flushed (but fading) from the exertion and hard physical work that is practice - oh yes, I definitely do not have that whole…

Influence

How much influence do others in our lives hold over us? How much influence do we hold over others? And where is the tipping point where trying to influence or persuade becomes trying to control or manipulate? Or are these different things that come from different motivations right out of the box? What to do…

Guilt, shame, clumsy still happens

Guilt and shame ... my old friends. There was a time no matter how good a day I had, how sweet a moment I enjoyed, something tiny would occur or flitter through my mind that would cause these emotions to encompass and color my whole world and separate me from that moment. Not anymore. Guilt…

Training #39 – Have a little faith in me

Monday morning, training with J. Today J prepared and presented the sequence counterpart to last Monday's lower body routine, of which I am still obsessed and thinking about all the time. And only partly because I can still feel the icepicks in the sides of my ass from those curtsey squats. Who knew there were…

Saturday addendum, Sunday continuation

This post is partly an addendum to yesterday's post (Gym discouragement? Not anymore). I do not do this often - usually my posts are like epic novels about nothing in particular in the blog worldview - but sometimes I am caught up in other stuff and forget something I want to remember later. So anyway ...…

Gym discouragement? Not anymore

At gym practice this morning, I went through the lower body routine J designed and presented on Monday. This was the third time this week, and it is not getting much easier with practice. The "lively" pace (as J describes it) is difficult to maintain. There was some new stuff as well as things I…

Emotion wrangling – water works, water heater woes

My personality is such that I am generally very good, very calm in the heat of crises that do not have me as their epicenter. Other people can be angry, upset, lashing out, and I am typically pretty calm about coping with it. Right now my son is going through a job/career crisis, in that…