Parents

Out and about at lunch today with one of my associates, she asked me if I miss my parents. Second anniversary of her father's death is Saturday and she is already feeling the oppressive sadness processing her ongoing grief. At work, in most of my face-to-face life, I rarely think about much less mention my…

The elbow and the sock

Today I had a weird elbow twinge pain. Which for me is unusual. Shoulders, knees, even wrists I could understand. But elbow? I know it was not from the gym - I did all lower body stuff this morning and somewhere deep within my glute muscles some bundle of fibers are bleating out "we don't…

Fear, anxiety, friendship

One of my very best friends is in the process of long-term recuperation and rehabilitation from a very serious illness. His return to health has been an arduous journey and is not over yet, but he has been improving and all our hopes are for a full and complete recovery. Along with that, though, we…

Finality bites

I have avoided writing about meeting with Spawn of Hellbeast last Friday and the aftermath of that meeting and signing of documents. In person, she was coldly professional and efficient. Copies of my separation and severance agreement were presented for my attorney's final review. Once he was satisfied, we brought in the notary and both…

More Cheepers

M's bird guest is thriving. While he's cute and all, I guess I am just not into birds. Dogs are more my thing, but anymore, the idea of the responsibility of having one in the household is daunting. I like the freedom that comes with being an empty nester. We do have cats, but they…

Houseguest

In general, M and I try hard to be gracious hosts. Apparently our hospitality extends to the feathered in our midst. M rescued this baby bird from the heat on Tuesday. This is the second such rescue this year, the first, Birdy Bird, resulted in a tragic and untimely death of unknown causes. Not for…

Nightmares of a mad, mad world

For at least the last 2 weeks, I have been having nightmares every single night. About work of all things. They began within a few days of meeting original Hellbeast, but as the rest of the Hellbeast clan has stepped up and introduced themselves (there is now Spawn of Hellbeast and Hellbeast Junior in the…

First world problem perspective

So I'm whining about work and recognizing the disconnect between intellectual understanding of what is happening and some emotional desire that it not be this way. I get it. It's not the end of the world, I'm managing it fairly well, and in most ways my job has been winnowed down from a decision-making manager…

Choices, stressors, negative vibes

Today, I had only one positive thing to say to anyone thus far. Meeting my friend K at the gym tonight, so that will change. She is doing really well with her barbell training and it's inspiring and exciting to witness. But for now, I'm a squatter in the negative neighborhood and feeling justified in…

Budget sacrifices

We have a couple gifting occasions coming up this summer. Normally I don't give it a whole lot of thought - if it's a wedding I go to their registry, pick something out, order it, ship it, done. If it's a baby shower, I do the same thing. If it's a baby announcement, though, I…