Better choices today

Immediately after bleeding my angry rage post yesterday, I was off for a visit with TM (my therapist, for newer readers unaware of my tribe of experts). Even in the midst of my own crazy, I understand when the walls have closed and boxed me in and how I need help getting out of a…

Baggage

April has been exhausting. Work is busy, hectic, crazy. Personal life is busy as well. But this is normal. This is typical. But it's the stuff in storage that is steering me in a funk-like state that is bordering depression. When my mom died a few years ago, I could not shed her house and…

The fear box

Everyone has fears - big ones, little ones, epic phobic ones. It is my conclusion that my ability to cope and manage my fears determines the quality of my day-to-day life. And if it were only so simple as to decide to set them aside and not allow them to influence, direct, or drive my…

Analyzing my emotions

I had a couple of nice conversations with my primary private clients today, and it was nice. The longest of these relationships was actually who referred me to my present firm and he knows my bosses quite well. While we were talking about the work I do for him and his firm and working out…

Losing my stuff

Titling this post "Losing my shit" would have been more appropriate, but I am trying to be considerate of those who are not quite as salty as I am in my language habits. Most of the time, I think I am pretty rational and organized. Then again, most of the time I seem to spend…

Less fear, more confidence

I was having a bit of a negativity shit storm this morning. Nothing serious - I caught myself before I dived off the cliff and could not recover the balance of my Friday. But still. Some moments are harder than others. This morning it was triggered by a voice message from the police department about…